This weekend I’ve had amazing training sessions with Kino MacGregor in Montclair, New Jersey. I woke up today at 3am enveloped in great peace. There is so much goodness and grace to give and receive, and I am so grateful for my portion. I got out of bed and took a walk around early dawn, and the stillness and beauty around me absolutely spoke to my heart.
God is in the quiet and in the calm. We find our Light and our peace when we simply open our hearts and listen to the still, small voice that speaks through ordinary, simple means. Too often, we pass by our opportunity to connect with the Great Peace that can be ours, because we get caught up in the search for the spectacular, the wonderful, the impressive.
But perhaps being still and equanimous requires the greatest strength of all, because God is in the stillness. Shavasana remains one of my more challenging asanas, because it’s difficult to neither be in the past nor the future, but simply balanced in-between those two in the present. We do yoga not so we can perform fancy poses, but so that we can burn away the distractions and listen to that still, small voice and find our own version of peace and joy.
And at the end of the day, don’t we all really want peace? I mean, we might have really complicated ways of going at it (like practicing binding our bodies up like a pretzel on the reg in our yoga practice), or we might have very confused ways of seeking it (like trying to fill a void with things, unbalanced relationships, and lofty accomplishments), but ask any billionaire what they want most, and they probably won’t say more stuff. Their honest answer would be peace. Loving relationships. The simple things in life that have no price tag.
Have you ever seen the movie Citizen Kane? It’s a masterpiece, and for a good reason. It tells the story of Charles Foster Kane. Kane’s career in the publishing world is born of idealistic social service, but gradually evolves into a ruthless pursuit of power and wealth, both of which he achieves. On his deathbed, he lays holding a snow globe and utters this single word: Rosebud. The rest of the plot is dedicated to a reporter trying to solve the mystery of what the formidable Kane meant, and he discovers all that glitters isn’t gold as he learns about Kane’s unhappy life. At the very end of the movie, the audience alone learns Rosebud was Kane’s sled, and he longed for simple times of peace and joy that he traded for his pursuit of power. Crazy life lesson, right?
These are my 3AM thoughts. Seriously, I have to work to put my brain to bed sometimes! But since I couldn’t sleep, I got out of bed and after my walk, I had meditative quiet time. Truly, God is in the quiet and in the calm. We can hear him if we but stop and listen. I read over this lovely chapter from I Kings 19, and my heart just loved it:
“And God said, “Go forth, and stand upon the mountain before me.” And a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before God; but God was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but God was not in the earthquake: And after the earthquake a fire; but God was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice. And this was God.”
May each of you find your version of the great peace that is waiting for you. Much love!